和阿辉一伙的事件，造成她内心很大的矛盾和不安，和她来往的信件中，类似这

totraioasexobject.

onthesofaandaimhiscockagainstmymessywetpussy.Hedidnot

MaybeIamohose.Lagaregursexlifeandlonenessmademe

丈夫从未接过其他男人的人妻来说，虽然明知不对，但被三个男人包围着

AabandonedFeiandcameover,repgB&039;spce.IthinkIsawa

抗

getmeinbedfirst,andusemyweaknessofafraidtoletothersknow

IamthinkingshouldIcallthefirst4PwithAhFairape.Inthe

她想叫又不敢叫的様，便知她很欠&8943;&8943;」

关于地下赌场的片段：AfterIcamethe2ndtimeBjustpushedmedown

sointenseIdidnotevencare.Amademecameagain,andthenasked“

ThistimeIwasveryworried,asIhadstoppedtakingmypillforsome

whoarenotawillingpartygettrickedintosubmittingtoasexual

hintofhatredfromhowFeilookedatme,butthenthepleasurewas

aarget,andinsteadofdatingandso,AhFaitookashortcutto

screaming.Hemademeeshortly.Maybeitisthesituation,or

pills).

我给亚辉们了几个小时，最后终于倦极了祼在床上休息。早上亚辉偷袭，连

westernworld,thereisagreyareacalledrelut,meaningsomeone

anddeep.AfterafewstrokeIfeltlikeingagain.Herideme

areuonthepill?”Ishakemyhead,butinsteadofpullingouthe

，我给去的醒,不但没有推拒，还抱着他迎合着。

有技巧地抚，自然逐渐气氛，最后逃不过被侵犯的命运。

Luckilymyperiodessometimeafter,andIstartedtakingmypills

Itoldhimnottoeiofcourse,hedidnotlisten.

againasIknewnowIneedprote.

situationthatshewasninallyintended,butendupenjoying.

最要命的是他们不是鲁蛮蛮抠，反而是一步步挑起我的情，对我这一个除了

justpushindeeperandshothishottomyt!

evenbothertoremovemydress,justliftitupandshoveditinhard

time(well,Idoohavesex,what&039;sthepointoftakingthe

之后亚辉哄哄骗骗的叫我再去，我也不知自己到底是什么心情，去之前很

tillucame,andthenpulledout.

Atthefirsttime,whenFaiwasligmypussyhisfriendssaid,「看

前戏也没有便直接来。可能是和老公之外的第一次给了他，卸下了我的矜持

maybeIjusthadnothadgoodsexfortoolong.

内心纠结的片段一再的现：